Let me start off this post with some honesty. Since my last post, I have struggled... struggled a lot. I have had distorted thoughts about food and myself for many years but I have always been able to go right to the edge without going over. My interest in absorbing all things related to health and wellness has kept me in check. That is until now. For the first time in my life, I feel like I've lost control of the dangerous dance that I have been dancing. Fortunately, I realized that; and I realized that I have too many wonderful things in my life to lose. So I have sought help. Therapy is hard work but I know that the end result is worth the effort. But before I could begin to battle my distortions, I had to be honest with myself that I had a problem. It can be so hard to be honest some times; but when we finally are, it can be so freeing.